I’ve been having a real struggle lately…I think I’m severely depressed.
My biggest issue…I don’t feel I have anyone to talk to about it.
My wife feels it’s “my problem” and I need to just take care of it myself. I feel like I’m a drag to (and imposing on) friends, who have been patient but seem to be tiring of my issues. So…I can talk to the cats, or the lawnmower. Or a wall, or something.
I went through a separation (April 2013), and even though we’re back together, things on my end just don’t seem to be getting better.
I’m unhappy. I don’t know why. I just want out…but I don’t know what I want out of. I’m confused…sad…lack motivation.
I want someone to just tell me it will be OK. To say they love me, no matter what, and listen to me as I try to work through my issues. I want someone to seem like they care. To just listen…not blame, judge, or anything else. Just listen.
I want someone to think my feelings are valid, not just “my problem”.
I don’t know what I’m going to do. I know I’m tired of doing what I’m doing now, of being who I am now.
Honestly, I just want everything to turn off for a long while.